Blindness

An old friend and classmate in gradeschool had just asked me if I've ever felt like I'm missing out on the greatest thing in my life. The honest answer is, of course, yes. But when I answered it, it was an empty simple and direct answer. The word was quite meaningless.

When asked personal Life questions like that, I don't usually answer in single words, because I normally explain myself, so that the people asking me could understand my perception, and where I'm coming from.

The thing is, I've always felt that I'm missing out on the greatest thing in my life. And my little theory is, it's because I don't even know what "the greatest thing in my life" is yet. I've honestly never paused to think about it. Ever. Before.

But now that I think about it, my years of discontent and bitterness most likely have affected my life and how I perceive it in general. That's why, as of this very moment, I believe that the greatest thing in my life is life itself.

Throughout my eighteen years of existence, I've always been discontented and to some extent, ungrateful for the countless of blessings that have been abundantly provided for me. There is--I strongly believe--a choice between seeing what there is and what there isn't. And as you can probably imagine, I chose to be blind. Because I was selfish and stubborn, I refused to see, and I turned my back on the opportunities and the people who matter.

Therefore, I really am thankful to Faye for asking me this question. A part of my New Year's resolution is to be positive, and to see the picture in a much brighter light. It's always been like that. Because she had asked me this question earlier in the year, I have more time to exercise these resolutions and hopefully, master them as I go along the year.

New Years are all about new beginnings after all. It's a chance for us to change what is bothering us, to correct what isn't working for us, and to live a much better year than the last.

Cheers to a new beginning!!!