The Disease of Laziness/Dream a Little Dream

I woke up late again today, around 11am. That's soooo effin' bad!!! School starts this monday, and I've gotten used to sleeping extremely late over the holidays. A friend says that I'm simply being "too tense and too uptight."

BUT I DON'T THINK SO!

Time just isn't what it used to be anymore. When we are children, we can count on adults to carry--and if need be, drag--us to places where we should be. We can count on our parents or guardians to threat us with spanking, whenever we show signs of straying. Sometimes, we just depend on them too much that we forget we've gotten older; that we should be able to do certain simple routines alone, without them yelling their heads off to remind us. And depending on our situations, there just comes a time, when being independent and responsible begins.

That's why I'm unhappy. I don't have the luxury of either parent waking me up from sweet slumber anymore. In fact, it's the other way around. They are always too tired from work, which is understandable, considering their jobs are tedious and wearisome. The thing is, it's winter. And just like some people, it's the season when I have trouble in the mornings because of the cold, when all I really want to do is stay underneath my comforter. And purely because of that, I feel like I'm becoming even more lazier than usual. Grrrrrrrr to the extreme!!!

And speaking of laziness, one of my closest friends, has said: Being lazy is like harboring a disease that's hard to cure. And I couldn't agree more. I can feel it growing and flowing inside me, taking hold of what little energy and resolution I have within me. Now, that just sucks. Period. Because laziness impedes us from acting. It stops us from living. Laziness is one of those ugly inhibiting factors in our lives. It's a force of nature, which--if you're unwilling and undetermined to prevent--would surely and easily blow you over. Laziness reminds me of...

The Phantom and Cooper, though the two of them have different cases.

The Phantom is resilient. He has determination to follow the things he wants to do through. He is just--in his own words--lazy. While Cooper on the other hand, knows what she needs to do. She only seems to be lacking the amount of self-confidence needed, as well as determination. Lacking so much in fact, that "it's making [her] go lazy."

For the Phantom, who already has his resources (and who I believe is taking it for granted), doesn't really have much of a problem to worry about. He just has to realize that he's old enough to be taking responsibilities into his own hands as it comes. Sure, he has several older and trustworthy relatives, whom he can depend on. But seriously??? Why on earth should he hold on to and wait for people to do his obligations when he's perfectly capable of doing them himself? And that goes for the rest of us. ;p

As for poor Coop, I'm really worried about her. She's undergoing through some difficult personal challenges right now. Whenever she talks about it, I feel completely helpless because I just don't know what to do. I'm afraid I might come off as tactless. And sometimes, I totally feel like I'm being such a negligent friend. Her family members are so emotionally distant that she's having a hard time confiding in them. They're also unsupportive of her and her dreams that it's come to a point where she's stopped herself from realizing them, because according to her, "there's no use, it's pointless."

To that end, I can very much relate to. My parents are unsupportive too. But, HELLO?! It's true that parents' lack of support in regards to what we want to do and achieve for our futures can lessen the joy of the ride, but we shouldn't allow it to block our paths to the finish line. Being able to dream, being able to feel passionate about, and being able to have the resources we need in order to achieve our personal aspirations are God given gifts. They are blessings that we should fight for to keep. They are blessings that we should do our best to not take it for granted. Life is short after all. The important things to remember are that there will always be distractions along the sidelines and obstacles along the way. We can't avoid these no matter how hard we try, because life is a test.

And I believe it's only through our faith in God, our confidence in ourselves, our dedication in our efforts, our perserverance to endure, and the burning flame within us, that we are able to overcome whatever it is that's stopping us from living our dreams.

Keep Breathing! Keep Dreaming! Keep Living!