B.B.W. (bugok.buta.whatever)

The first week of my last semester in highschool finally came by and went; and I must say that this is the semester I have been looking forward to in agonizing anticipation ever since middle school. Therefore, as the week slowly progressed into an incredible hazy blur, the dream eventually became the reality. Too much of a reality in fact, that I was sleep deprived more than ever in my short years of existence, that I was limited from pursuing other personal short-term goals, that I was actually reduced to trying to catch up with my own life. Seriously. No kidding!!!

Consequently--due to an extreme case of weariness--I broke two New Year's Resolution: reading the Bible daily, blogging every night before bed. I was prepared for this, to be quite honest. Pastor Allan did say that resolutions are doomed to fail. Plus, I am still lacking the amount of determination in order to persevere. I simply need to push myself to try harder. It's all up to us after all. And a conversation with the Phantom, this week, reinforced the familiar lesson in my lead. Depending on others--whether our family or our friends--to change what bothers us or infuriates us about ourselves isn't going to cut it; and waiting for them to push us to our limits isn't enough either, because at the end of the day, it's our own personal push, our own self-motivation and determination that exerts the most weight. Our own efforts are what we need and what matter the most when we wish to improve our lifestyle and state of being for without our painstaking exertion, the assistance of others are fruitless.

Speaking of efforts... I just realize that several people--of whom I am close and acquainted with--do not understand the significance of Effort is in relationships. Either that, or they simply don't care. Nevertheless, this epiphany, I admit, is both astounding and disturbing. I mean, jeeeeeeezzzz! No wonder these same people take me, others, and even themselves for granted. Swear, it's one of the nuttiest thing! Everrrr!!! An "i-love-you" is neither an excuse nor an invitation for people to disappoint and break hearts or take advantage of certain well-known weaknesses. And to all the B.B.W. (bugok, buta, whatevers) of this universe, treat your significant others with love and respect, and do not take their presence, support and affection for granted--because once they decide to leave, you'll realize the ugly truth, that all you have is nothing. And while I'm at it, ka-ayahay ba gud ninyo nga kamo ang apas-apason! nga kamo pa jud ang hilak-hilakan! nga kamo pa jud ang gipang-higugmaan!!! You're all so despicably stupid and blind that you don't realize the damages you've inflicted. Tapos, kamo pa ang maghangyo-hangyo nga wala'y biyabiya-ay! What an effin load of bullcrap! Which leads me to what the Phantom rightfully said earlier today, "you have to leave something for yourself." Spot on! Korek Micanor!!! But this all sadly goes back to the simple fact, doesn't it? It all goes back to what Mr. Lucca said about the problem that arises from trusting in our common senses as an alternative to the scientific method, that "common sense isn't always common practice." Grawwwrrr! Now I am annoyed to the nth degree! Kei nganong magpatuga-tuga ug panguyab unya dili man diay dayon maningkamot?! nga dili man gali dayon makipaglaban, ug ibaliwara ra diay dayon pagkadugayan. Obvious kaayo nga gidugo ko nohhh? ;p

Right, enough with the unfabulous-ness. I sound and seem extremely ooooglieeee na. Hahaha!

Indignant for myself, my friends [Abigail, Carmela, Teresa, Faye], my acquaintances, and other B.B.W. victims out there.

Fight the power and be in control. =]